How May I Serve You?

Then you will understand what is right, just, and fair, and you will find the right way to go.

Proverbs 2:9

I’m in one of those seasons where I feel like I need answers. When the end of this year rolls around, I’ll be graduating from college. After that, my future is very much up in the air.

So, I’ve been leaning heavily on the promises in Proverbs 2, which are all about seeking wisdom and making sound choices. I’ve been coming before the throne of God for guidance in a relationship and a career. I look around me and it seems as though so many things are falling into place for my peers.

Much of my future, though, looks as settled as sediment swirling around in a glass of water. So, I’ve been seeking the right way to go.

I go to God, asking HIm which woman is right for me, which career path is right for me, or which nation is right for me. I wanted answers, but sometimes all I find is frustration and confusion.

So, last night, I went to God and told Him how sick I am of the turmoil. I let Him know that I want to know which path He has for me (not my path, mind you, but His path). Imagine my anxiety when I found myself and my thoughts flying all over the place.

It was in that moment that God whispered.

I had become so eager to know which way was right, which way led to Him, which way was His will for my life, that I lost sight of something.

God asked me, “Do you want me? Or do you want answers? Are you satisfied with me, you God, and nothing else? Or are you seeking something more?”

In the face of those questions, I realized that the Lord is my path. I had basically been asking God which idols were all right for me to chase.

That last line still has to sink in for me. So, I’m just going to type it again.

I had basically been asking God which idols were all right for me to chase.

Somewhere along in the line in my honest desire know Him and His will for my life, I lost sight of the fact that all of my satisfaction, my entire being is found and made whole in Him.

In my fervent asking how my life could best serve Him, my persepctive started to twist into how could He best serve me.